Thursday, November 13, 2008

Fortune Cookies Speak Volumes.


About two days ago I was sitting down enjoying my sesame noodles with chopsticks in hand. The grand finale to every good Chinese meal (for me anyway) are those great little crescent shaped treats wrapped neatly in clear plastic; the fortune cookie. Many, including myself most of the time, don't even eat the faintly sweet cookie, but go straight for whats contained inside....

My fortune told me what you see in the picture above... "The love of your life will carry you through any circumstance." and it made me think... I don't have a "love" per say. I don't have "a significant other", I'm not romantically involved in the least bit and I'm not even dating at the moment. Who then, is "the love of my life"?

Who has carried me through all the gray periods? Who has forced me to trudge on when life was falling to pieces (or so I thought it was)? Who wiped tears when I was crying and gave me words of wisdom and a good kick in the ass when I needed it? Who got me through all the woes up until this very moment in my life that I sit here staring at this computer screen?....

Besides my Mother, who is not the "love of my life"; she IS my LIFE, the one and only true love of my life would be .... well... Me.

ahem...so until "the love of my life" comes along, you know the one that's supposed to sweep me off my feet and hold doors open for me and blah blah blah...... I got my own back. :o)

moral of the story?: Love yourself before you try loving someone else...If not, you'll have a real big emotional mess on your hands. (Duh)

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Lentamente Muore... Slowly He Dies

I hate chain letters. I never open them. Infact, I get so aggitated when my friends and family waste their time and mine by sending them. They're awful. Please if you're reading, don't send me them unless you refer to me first as to whether or not I'd be interested... I'm serious....
However, the following poem was part of a chain letter and it wasn't originally sent to me. It was sent to my friend Milena in Italia, who made me read it through her email.... long story short.. I MADE her send it to me because I was so impressed with it. The poet is Martha Madieros, a Brazilian from Rio Di Janiero... I can't understand portugese, so below is the Italian translation, and after that; english. Do yourself a favor and read it twice. I'm certain you'll want to share this with others as well...

Lentamente muore


Lentamente muore chi diventa schiavo dell'abitudine, ripetendo ogni giorno gli stessi percorsi, chi non cambia la marcia, chi non rischia e cambia colore dei vestiti, chi non parla a chi non conosce.

Muore lentamente chi evita una passione, chi preferisce il nero su bianco e i puntini sulle "i" piuttosto che un insieme di emozioni, proprio quelle che fanno brillare gli occhi, quelle che fanno di uno sbadiglio un sorriso, quelle che fanno battere il cuore davanti all'errore e ai sentimenti.

Lentamente muore chi non capovolge il tavolo, chi è infelice sul lavoro, chi non rischia la certezza per l'incertezza, per inseguire un sogno, chi non si permette almeno una volta nella vita di fuggire ai consigli sensati.

Lentamente muore chi non viaggia, chi non legge, chi non ascolta musica, chi non trova grazia in se stesso.

Muore lentamente chi distrugge l'amor proprio, chi non si lascia aiutare; chi passa i giorni a lamentarsi della propria sfortuna o della pioggia incessante.

Lentamente muore chi abbandona un progetto prima di iniziarlo, chi non fa domande sugli argomenti che non conosce, chi non risponde quando gli chiedono qualcosa che conosce.

Evitiamo la morte a piccole dosi, ricordando sempre che essere vivo richiede uno sforzo di gran lunga maggiore del semplice fatto di respirare.

Soltanto l'ardente pazienza porterà al raggiungimento di una splendida felicità.-

(Martha Medieros)
Slowly He Dies
Slowly he dies, he who becomes a slave of habit, repeating the same course every day, who doesn't change his march, who doesn't risk and change the colors of his clothes, who doesn't talk to whom he doesn't know.
Slowly he dies, he who avoids having a passion, who prefers black on white, and all the dots on the "i"'s rather than a whirlwind of emotions. Those emotions, that make our eyes shine bright, turn a yawn into a smile, and make the heart beat ferociously with feelings.
Slowly he dies, he who doesn't take a stand, who is unhappy at work, who doesn't risk certainty for incertainty to follow a dream, who doesn't permit himself at least one time in his life to flee from the generic and sensible advisement of others.
Slowly he dies, he who doesn't travel, who doesn't read, who doesn't listen to music, who doesn't find grace in himself.
Slowly he dies, he who destroys the love he has for himself, who doesn't allow himself to be helped, who passes everyday complaining about his constant misfortune or the incessant rain that falls.
Slowly he dies, he who abandons a project before he even begins it, who doesn't take the time to ask questions on arguments he is uneducated on, who doesn't respond with the answers when he does know something.
Everyday, we avoid death in small doses, remembering always that the gift of being alive requires a much greater force from within, than just the simple action of breathing.
Only ardent patience will bring us to the fufillment of splendid happiness. -
(Martha Medieros)- (Translated by: Lindsey Signorelli)

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Life Is For Living... The First Blog.

It's a shame that we as humans realize the importance of life only after something very tragic hits close to home. I've always been an optimist, but everyone has weak moments in their daily lives when they feel that the world is closing in on them and theres absolutely no hope for redemption into utter happiness. (When I speak of redemption, I'm not talking about being repent of sins, I'm not one to preach about religion)

You know that feeling you get when everything down-right sucks, and life as you know it is the worst life that anyone could ever live and why try anyway to succeed because your just going to fail, or why tell the person you're in love with how your heart skips a beat every time you see them because they're going to reject you anyway, or telling yourself that you can't afford to take that vacation that you've always wanted to backpacking through Europe, or holding a grudge with someone (or perhaps many) that you once called a true friend or close family member for something as silly as missing your birthday or saying something out of tone.

My answer to all these woes is very simple and straightforward:

Life is too painfully short to be scared of rejection or failure in your professional, social, and personal life; to worry about debt (because rest assured that it will be there when you return from the eye-opening and life-changing sojourn that you experienced trekking through Europe); and to ostracize a relative or dear friend from your life because they slipped-up, because we're human remember... we all slip-up, and hey, it probably won't be the last slip-up either.

I'm not a psychologist, an expert on relationships, a financial advisor, or a counselor and I don't have an MBA (yet).

I am a person though, who will sit and listen to your problems with an open ear (much like a psychologist or counselor), only I'll tell you that there's someone in a far more dire state than yourself. I'll steer clear from drama and the people that create it, constantly surrounding myself with positivity. I will tell you I love and care for you, even if the chance of being rejected makes my heart ache, and I can show you 2 credit card bills and college loans that would make you wimper. (superbly spent money that I truly didn't have, and I'd do it again)

Everyday my mind is racing at a numbing speed of 956,087,345,000 thoughts per minute, but I have one thought that remains constant as morbid as it may sound:

My life could end tomorrow or the people that I care for the most may not be there next week...So I speak up when necessary, laugh and smile way too often, try to take every travel opportunity possible (unless completely unreasonable at the time), and go on the highest, speediest rollercoasters with my hands way up the air (for this, there is NEVER an exception :oD ).... You get the point.

My scope with this rant (or blog... whichever you prefer), is to maybe, make at least 1 person think twice about their attitude on life. If I fail... At least I know I had the grit and boldness to give it a whirl. If you don't take chances you'll never know what could've been anyways.

This epiphany to suddenly let my "inner-blogger" shine through was due to a beautiful muse named Erika who is no longer with us due to breast cancer and she will be missed by many. My heart goes out to my aunt, cousins, and all who are mourning her loss.
I dedicate this entry to her memory.
Rest In Peace Erika Signorelli-Williams
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My most favorite thought-provoking fable:

"Dope On a Rope"

'This criminal had committed a crime. (Because hey that's what criminals do. That's their job.) Anyways, he was sent to the king for his punishment. The king told him he had a choice. He could be hung by a rope or take the punishment behind the big dark scary steel door. The criminal quickly decided on the rope. As the noose was being slipped on him, he asked, "Out of curiosity, what's behind that door?" The king laughed and said, "You know, it's funny, I offer all you guys the same choice, and nearly all of you pick the rope." "So," said the criminal, "What's behind the door? Obviously, I won't tell anyone," he said, pointing to the noose around his neck. The king paused then answered, "Freedom, but it seems most people are so afraid of the unknown that they immediately take the rope." All too often FEAR stops you from going where you need to go.'

From the book: "How To Be Happy, Dammit. A Cynic's Guide to Spiritual Happiness"